I am a doer. I am a
disciplined doer and I don’t just do things for the sake of it (having children
and limited time has ensured that!) but even in my quiet times, I find myself
trying to achieve something.
I am trying to find more intimacy with God but I find myself
trying to do things to achieve that.
So, perhaps not surprisingly, first on God’s heart to share
with me was not about the answers to my many questions, but about His love and
desire to be with His bride. How he
desired His bride to lie on His chest and listen to Him.
I had a dream and I saw these words written: The Lord delights in the nations who listen
to Him. I looked them up when I woke
up and they are not a specific verse, but they spoke to me about God’s aching
desire for the nations to not be groping around in the darkness, but knowing His
voice. God desires for His bride to
listen to Him. My personal response was to pray for wise prophetic
voices to be raised up and listened to in all the nations of the world.
One of the things that has been discovered about people with
ADD or ADHD (difficulties in concentration and hyperactivity) is that their
internal rhythms are out of sync. They
have no internal beat to guide them. As
a result, music and rhythm therapy can be incredibly helpful. I wonder how many Christians have spiritual
ADHD? They are so busy and distracted that they find it impossible to be still before
God. Or is the reason that they have spiritual ADHD because they don't make time to listen to Him?
Three weeks ago I was that ADHD Christian- distracted and
hyperactive, finding myself completely out of sync with Him and feeling totally
ineffective in prayer.
God spoke to me about rhythm:
Rhythm begins before a baby can even feel it – loud,
overwhelming, overtaking rhythm. It is a
constant and consumes their world – the beat to their life and it is totally
reassuring.
When a baby is born, often only a return to that beat will
calm the child’s inner needs. The baby
can only fully relax, breathe and sleep deep when warmed and comforted by close
skin-on-skin – melted back into one with the mother. The heartbeat calms,
reassures and relaxes, lulling them like no other lullaby into the security to
let go and be.
A lover resting on her lover’s chest – time disappears. A sudden mellowing in her body – a relaxation
so deep that she realizes the many burdens she has been carrying – just how
many stresses had been loaded upon her and stuck to her during the day. Lying silently upon her lover, there is a
calming deep within – an embrace of worth that answers that question: am I
wanted? Am I loved? Am I?
How much more when you choose to rest your head upon the
chest of the Divine Lover? God murmurs “shhhh”
as all of your problems and anxieties melt into Him. He holds you until you calm your spirit and
you start listening to His heartbeat.
The warmth of His smile, the softness of His embrace, the joy of His
Presence saturates your soul and enlivens your dulled spirit. And you listen. To begin with, the heartbeat seems intrusive
and loud, until you calm right down and go with it. Your breathing becomes deeper. Your muscles relax and the rhythm begins to
calm – a constant only you are aware of.
Be still and Know that I am God, I will be exalted amongst the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.
– Psalm 46:10
How can the desire of
the Divine Lover be known amongst the nations, unless His people today will
still themselves to spend time with their Lover?
Practical sidenote:
I actually found a relaxation app which plays a constant
heartbeat sound very useful in calming my spirit to listen to His Spirit. I used it as I focused on God in my quiet
times and it enabled me to still myself
before Him and enjoy His presence.
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